Even if we walk in together and separate for food stations, I can’t do this. I can look for a few seconds, but not long. Sometimes, I just give up and sit alone, because it’s less stressful than looking for them. Plus, if I do find them, and they’re close friends that KNOW I have anxiety about this, I’d get a little angry because they didn’t look out. I know this is irrational, and I don’t say anything right at the table, but I’m a little silent at the start of the meal, until I could get my anxiety and anger under control. I will say something later, and now most of my friends know about this little “quirk” and generally look out for me.

Now I am SO THANKFUL for text and cell. I won’t walk in to a restaurant until I’m aware of their location. And I know my true friends, they’re the ones that get up and meet me at the door!